life as we know it.

You ever wonder why people cannot just live life like its the last day they have? I wonder that all the time, I am the kind of person that if something looks fun I am going to do it. I could careless if it's gonna take me a half day to clean the mess I made up, If I am having fun thats all that matters. Charlie is completely the opposite he would rather keep things clean and dust free and get enjoyment out of that. He has trouble just having fun and letting all his inhibitions go for that one moment of true happiness. If we all just let go and had a moment of true happiness a day if only for a moment, I think the world would be a generally happier place. I am finding that there are alot of unhappy people around. I have also come to the conclusion that in america if "you" don't have alot of money you lead a shitty life. it's just an observation I have made. I don't think people need money to have fun, I can have fun just by going for a walk in the woods I actually feel almost at peace in the forest it brings me back to Canada for that moment in time. I am still missing my family alot I still talk to my grandma everyday and sometimes my uncle, it's not as bad as it was in the beginning, writing this about missing them makes me cry but I have not cryed about missing them for a little while now. Halloween was so fun with Nolan he dressed up like a dragon. He had alot of fun. There was a house that made my day they called Nolan back to give him more candy because he had good manners, the best they had seen all night is what they said. That made my whole night, It made me feel so good that all my work teaching him them had payed off that it does matter. Maybe there is a chance for our kids to change the world back to how it was. When we knew we had better respect our elders, when we opened doors for people, Said please and thank you, smiled and said hello to people walking by. I hope thats not too much to want for the future.